I'm Alive

I'm Alive

a song by Jody Jenkins

Part of me didn’t want to wake up the next morning, because I knew that day would be just as bad, if not worse, than the day I had just suffered through. People tried to pull me out of my spinning horror. They tried to understand what was going through my head, but it was no use—not even I understood it.

No matter how many people stood by my side, I felt completely alone. I was lost in a haze of confusion that had me scrambling for answers that were nowhere to be found. Wicked forces were attacking my thoughts and strangling the very life that I had loved so much. I knew no way to fight back.


I wasn’t always like this. Once you may have thought I was the happiest man in the world. I had it all—a wonderful wife, four precious children, a strong faith in my God, and my dream job of being the pastor of the church I had been raised in. What could go wrong?


EVERYTHING.


Darkness, I never saw coming, crept into my mind and brought everything I held dear into question. My feet slipped out from under me. A whirlwind hit my mind like a moving train. Doubting and broken, I was suddenly thrown inside one of the darkest prisons known to the human soul…depression. I was locked behind the imaginary bars from which I thought I would never escape. I was hopeless, I had lost all control, and I thought I had no chance of freedom.


I would have given anything to change it, to make it go away, to be able to just start over; maybe even to just call it quits, and stop living.


Do you know what I’m talking about?


If you do, I’d like to be the first to tell you, I know how it feels. I know what you’re going through.


You think nobody could possibly have it as bad as you have it. Certainly, nobody would be able to understand.


Yes, I thought that too, but I’m here to tell you that I do understand. I know what you’re going through, and I remember how awful it was.


I also want to tell you that it didn’t last forever. I made it through the despair. I was able to escape the jailhouse that had imprisoned my joy. Despite thoughts running through your mind such as: it’s impossible, you’ll never feel better, you’ll never find answers to the questions that squeeze the tears from your eyes; I’m telling you there is hope. I found it, and I want to offer it to you. If you’ll accept it, you can be at peace just like I am. So please take a moment and read carefully, it might just change your life.


I found my hope in my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.


Yes, I know, maybe you don’t believe it, but wait, just keep reading…Jesus helped me through my depression. He freed me from the desperate thoughts that pounded my mind from the moment I opened my eyes in the morning. He really is the Savior and He really can help you.


Believe me, I know.


If you think your life is over, if you think your life is ruined, there is hope. Maybe you’ve even thought suicide would be better than to continue the way you are. Jesus can help you! You really can have the peace that you’ve tried so hard to find. Maybe you’ve been this way for days, maybe months like me, or maybe even years. It doesn’t matter, Jesus is there for you. He’s the only One that can pull you out of this and give you the answers you need. He wants to give you the rest that your mind is screaming for. He really does love and care about you. Do you know Him? Have you ever trusted Him as your personal Savior? If not, let me encourage you to make that decision today!


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